I've rebuilt my life more than once. Now I teach people how.
BEFORE I HAD A NAME FOR ANY OF IT
THE CALL
When I was five years old, I had an experience I still cannot fully explain. After I was hit by a car, for a moment, I was outside my own body, looking back at myself. No pain, nothing. Then something steadier took its place, a certainty that has never left me since. There is more to this life than what we can see and touch.
That certainty travelled with me through a career that refused to stay in one lane. I worked in law enforcement. I built a life in business, then a company of my own. I competed on Peking Express, a televised endurance format broadcast to audiences in more than twenty countries, in front of cameras, under real pressure, with nowhere to hide.
Underneath all of it, I carried real loss. I lost the man I loved to suicide. For almost to ten years, I was separated from my own daughter. Loss like that does not ask permission. It simply arrives, and it convinces you there is no way back, let alone forward. That was my call. Not a single moment, but everything that finally made staying exactly as I was impossible.
CROSSING THE THRESHOLD
At the end of 2020, I left my job and sold everything I owned. I spent the years that followed travelling, carrying two questions I could not put down.
Who am I? What is my purpose? I spent time in a spiritual community in Italy and USA. I studied and practiced Buddhism in Nepal. I was not running away. I was finally going searching.
I didn't learn any of this from a book. I invested seriously, in time, money and travel, to train properly, under people who had actually done the work themselves. I trained formally in hypnosis and behavioural change under Edwin Selij, known in the Netherlands as the hypnosis king.
I completed Success Resources's Quantum Leap program in full, including Train the Trainer, Guerilla Business Intensive, Never Work Again and Enlightened Warrior Camp, across intensives in Malaysia and Berlin. I built my personal brand under JT Foxx's MegaBranding program in Los Angeles.
Every part of this was lived, paid for, and practiced. None of it was read about from a distance.
I LEFT EVERYTHING TO GO SEARCHING
I FOUND MY WAY BACK
THE RETURN
I'm not telling you any of this for sympathy. I'm telling you because I know, firsthand, what it feels like to be so far inside a pattern that you believe there is no way out. And I know, firsthand, that there is.
My daughter and I found our way back to each other in 2023. I found my way back to myself long before that, one hard, unglamorous choice at a time.
Here is what I have never believed, not once, in any of it. That knowing what to do was the hard part. I always knew. Knowing was never where I got stuck. What's actually hard is everything that happens after you know, when the old pattern is still right there, still pulling, and you have to do the different thing anyway, especially when no one's watching and the pressure is real.
She was never lost. I just had to stop hiding from her.
She was never lost. I just had to stop hiding from her.
NOW I CARRY IT TO WHOEVER NEEDS IT
THE ELIXIR
These days I travel with two suitcases, nothing more, and I go wherever the work is needed, a stage, a boardroom, a classroom, a single room with one person in it.
I've spoken at Cosentino Amsterdam, and to audiences of nearly two thousand people in Los Angeles and Beverly Hills, through the JT Foxx Mega Success circuit, where the stage I stood on shared its names like Dr. Phil.
I'm not interested in telling people what they already know. I help them close the exact gap I had to close myself, between already knowing and actually doing.
If you're ready to work on what happens next, whether that's for yourself or your team, book a complimentary discovery call, or get in touch about a talk or a program for your organization or school.
Awa Prenilla
THE INVESTMENT